Get off Dat Pipe

Dressed to impress…
Ass is tight; hair done right
You scopin scopin scopin the room;
For that hit
Where is he?
The one with another
Your friend’s old lover…

That’s what you need to relieve that twitch?
That’s what you need to feel like that bitch?
Just one look might be all you need
To feel important…

Suck on dat pipe of false dignity
Breathin in deep to be rid of insecurities
Your addicted…addicted
To attention
Not to mention
Looking for love
Whatever that is

Dress like her, talk like them
Who are you?
Anyone- anything to get that fix
Of attention

Fixen to feel
Fixen to find beauty outside
Of you

Suck dat pipe
Do it right!
So you can get soooo high!!
Wanna suck? Wanna fuck?
Whatever’s whatever to feel just right
Addicted…addicted to da pipe

Feeling sad, unworthy, and blue?
Girl loose those morals and
Do whatever he asks of you
It don’t matter just play
The game that comes your way

Breath in deep
To that toxic heat

Am I worthy yet-you say
The best of the night yet- you say
He says- what… I don t remember you!
Looking strung out, lost, and like all but nothing boo!

Stop getting high off my pipe, her pipe, and the other chicks too!
Find that love, respect, and attention inside of you!
You must find your way out of the dark-
You must find your voice inside your heart-
That’s when you will see
That you’re a special queen… baby!

Shee-Vawn

Mind Lifted

My heart weighs heavy not from nature not from love but from you
Do you see me?
See the way I look at the smallest things with beauty
Can you feel my soul?
The strength it exudes for those I love
Are you there?
My outstretched arms are waiting to be filled
I wait, creating expectations that are never met
Can you hear…me…
I cry and scream so you can find me in the forest surrounded by fog
No need for a compass just use the love you have for me
Is it there?
I think so but wait…
We’ve only touched the surface and you are content
I say there is more!
We must swim upstream to reach our bliss
You laugh as if it does not exist…
Stagnation is the majority
I am the minority!
I will never stop…Love is infinite with the potential to reach the stars…
I will always look up climbing…fighting…for…what I’ve always wanted
Ha! You cannot lift my heart
You are not the one
No… it must be me!
I see me and I am beauty!
I feel my soul and it is alive!
I hear my voice such a melodic tone!
My love is unconditional and will ride or die with me!

ME

Thoughts

Am I the only one out there that has questions that need answers?

**Have you ever wondered why we remember in pictures; Why not words?

**Babies start to dance when they hear music. Does that mean we are born with the desire to dance like we are born with the desire to eat? I think so.

**Why do people look up to the heavens? I thought earth was in space so doesn't that mean that heaven could be straight ahead or behind you?

**Why can't someone feel special maybe even powerful by looking at the very top of a tree, at the very top leaf and smile knowing that you are the only one in this world that will lay eyes on that leaf?

**Why do humans think that we have developed intellectually and progressed as a society just because technology has gotten faster and easier? I thought that being strong and becoming intellectually progressive consisted of learning patience, understanding, and true simplistic love. I feel more powerful within when I can overcome life's obstacles.. whether it be a supressive circumstance, a new kind of pain, or a decision that must be made changing everything in one's life. To me that is what it is all about. What do you think?

I wonder if I will find someone that can answer these questions....or will I always wonder?

ME
November 12, 2007

Trust Outside the Box

I look out and see the world, everyone. I see them, hear them, watch them. Can they see me? It's safe… familiar where I am. I hold myself tight never wanting to leave. They scare me. I don't want to touch them, feel them… just watch. I enjoy that. I could see out. It's clear, but no one can see in. No door or windows just safe. As I grow it gets cramped. I find a way to get out and stretch. Fear overcomes me. It hurts out here and I run back in! Then I met you. You said its ok you can come out. It will be painful at first, for a while but you will experience life! Just jump off the cliff; I will catch you. Hmmm…Should I try? I am ok with just watching, observing. I don't need to feel. You say I must be brave. I must live outside...outside of my head. I try, I trust. I jump off the cliff into your arms but it hurts. Your touch is painful your love excruciating. I don't like this...but wait… your eyes give me strength. I endure the pain while looking at you. I say what about the pain? You say you will become strong. I faint, fall, crawl and then…I see. Oh yes, yes! I think I like this. It feels…like….Love!
ME
December 08, 2008

When...

One person can spread but so much...can love but so much and be but so much. How far can one love, hold on, try? Struggle is a vehicle to solace so why take the most difficult route? The struggle itself is enough... why take one step forward and two steps back? What is the point? Are we to appreciate more with the added challenge? Are we really gonna be ok? When does solace present itself? Many times it shows it's face and then runs and hides playing cat and mouse...what if I don't want to play...I guess we are at the mercy of the game already in progress. If we really want to finally reach the end of the road and finally gain our solace...peace...true happiness that is "said" to be worth fighting for we must entertain or play the game with optimism. We must keep in mind that it's worth it… right?

ME
November 30, 2008

Strength or Fear? Take Your Place!

Love is tested and proven through hard times. You know you love your friend but what if she wasn't there for you when you needed her? Would you forgive or drop her? You love your sister but what if she was jealous of your accomplishments? Do you pray for her or shun her? You love your man but what if he flirted with 'that girl'? Would you smash the windows out his car or check him and move on together? What if your friend was lost when needed, your sister is living in the shadows, and your man was scared of all that love you were givin him.....would you understand or fold and run from the hurt. You must learn to forgive one day. Be strong when your friend is not there, tell your sister it's ok you are the same come from the same place,and tell your man not to be scared, your love aint goin nowhere... Love is tested and proven through hard times...in the end you will know if you really...really loved them... Once you see yourself, what will you have to say? Strength or fear... take your place!
ME
Decemb er 20, 2008

Life!

Wonder
Unique
Infinite
Finding that difficulties construct roads to better times

Humbling
Defining Moments
A privilege
Learning that pain gives birth to pleasure

Bond
Experience
Compassion
Knowing that strength is needed to fight though fear

Your beginning is the caterpillar while your end is the butterfly spreading memories before flying away!
Life is a gift given to our soul as a window; to experience
A touch, to see, to love;
Changing it’s very being…
ME

January 20, 2009